post number nineteen

Hi, my name is Alex.

I wonder if I'm good enough.

do you hate awkward situations where you're really uncomfortable and don't exactly know what to do or how to act. yeah, so do i. my lunchtime today did not go as planned. trust me though, it will not happen again.

i am so stressed out it is unreal. i am very impressed with myself for not running from my possible relationship yet. i am keeping my feet planted very well. today really shook that and put it to the test. but i survived!

things always look different from the outside. especially when it comes to households. i just want to take a sledgehammer to these walls that are "holding" in all the secrets.

i'd love to do a big fanciful message for you but life is draining. i am tired. inside out and sideways.

I don`t know what I want to do with my life. I just know I want to do
it. I want to see the world. I want to meet every single person breathing
on this earth. I want to give everyone a hug or a handshake, and I want to
make someone`s life a little easier. I want to be different than the people I
know because that`s what makes us beautiful. I want to be absolutely ridiculous
before I die. I don`t want regrets. I want to stand for something.

i. want. these. glasses.

You're not my type. You're not supposed to be
the guy I dream about. But for some reason, I'm
not trying to pick myself back up, because even if
I'm not supposed to, there's no one else
who I would rather fall for.

I guess the reason I think I'm nothing is because no one's 

ever fought for me. I believe that if I was really truly worth it, 

that somewhere along this road, someone would've fought for 

me to stay, but instead, I always wound up walking away.

love this bang.

"I do remember what I said. The promise. To protect her.

If I'd have done that, even if I didn't make it, you wouldn't

have had to jump. But I want you to know I did save you.

Not when it counted, of course, but after that. Every night

after that. I'd see it all again, and do something different.

Faster, or more clever, you know? Dozens of times, lots

of different ways. Every night, I save you."

I hate it when people tell me, "I can't believe

you don't have a boyfriend!" well what's so hard

to believe? I've never been good enough for anyone.

criss angel is the real thing. totally legit. don't try to tell me any different.

Don't worry about me, my heart's not

broken anymore. You should be worrying

about yourself. Because as far as I can see,

you're still an asshole

 You laugh and ask what that look on my face is about,

and I laugh because it's always you I'm grinning about. 

"He looked at me and said, "Do you ever feel like you're

working for something you're never going to get? You

shoot-and-miss kind of deal. Like, no matter what, you

can't have it, but that makes you fight for it just a little bit more?"

I looked at him, stared at him for a second, and replied "everyday".

there are two kinds of people in your life. the ones that are going to pick you up and the ones that are going to push you down, but in the end youll thank them both.

"You told me to fight for you and I did. But you never fought for me."

               -One Tree Hill

"It's not that I want to be the one holding your hand, it's just that I don't want her to be the one holding it."

            -Dawson's Creek

"I didn't come here to tell you that I can't live without you. I can live without you. I just don't want to."

          -Rumor Has It

"I really can't deny it. I am who I am. I'm pretty normal. I'm not that smooth type of girl. I run into things, I trip. I spill food. I say stupid things. I really don't have it all together."

         -Kate Holmes

In all my years of chasing guys,

i don't think i've ever gotten any

of the ones i really wanted. & so

i desperately want you to be the first one.

it`s funny how boys can read a girls profile

and never realize that every word is about

her love and desire to be with him.

whoever wrote the 'book of

life' must have forgotten to put

the answers in the back.

he's not your prince charming

if he doesn't make sure you know

that you're his princess.

-- Demi Lovato

life's journey is not to arrive at your grave safely in a well-preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, saying, "holy shit, what a ride!"