post number four

the last 18 hours of my life have definitely been the most difficult of my entire existence. the course of events and the thoughts and emotions behind them are so jarbled right now i couldn't put it into words. until i can, i'll leave you with quotes. at least some people can turn their confusion into elequent reading;

i never know how to feel.
i don't think it matters anyways..

as soon as i accept that you're gone, you come back.

the best thing about a picture is that it never changes. even when the people in it do.

i’m fading in and out of this fuzzy, unloving asylum. and i don’t understand how i got here in the first place.

four lessons on life: one, never take down a fence until you know why it was put up. two, if you get too far ahead of the army, your soldiers may mistake you for the enemy. three, don’t complain about the bottom rungs of the ladder, they helped to get you higher. four, if you want to enjoy the rainbow, be prepared to endure the storm.
-warren wiershe

the only unreachable dream is the one you don’t reach for.

expecting life to treat you well just because you're a good person
is like expecting an angry bull not to charge you because you're a vegetarian

sometimes, i pretend to be normal; but it gets boring, so i go back to being me.

don’t let the imaginary person in your head keep you from loving the real one right in front of you.

sometimes when i'm talking, my words can't keep up with my thoughts. i wonder why we think faster than we speak. probably so we can think twice

sometimes, you just can't tell anybody how you really feel. not because you don't know why, not because you don't know your purpose, not because you don't trust them... but because you can't find the right words to make them understand.

if you think you’re too small to have an impact, try going to bed with a mosquito

up until now i had sworn to myself that i’m content with loneliness.

if you have food in your fridge, clothes on your back, a roof over your head, and a place, you are richer than 75% of the world. if you have money in the bank, your wallet, and some spare change, you are among the 8% of the world’s wealthy. if you woke up this morning with more health than illness, you are more blessed than the million people who will not survive this week. if you have never experienced the danger of battle, the agony of imprisonment or torture, or the horrible pangs of starvation, you are luckier than 500 million people alive and suffering. if you can read this message, you are more fortunate than 3 billion people in the world who cannot read at all.

maybe i’ll never be who i was before. maybe i don’t even know her anymore.

one day i’m not going to do what i’m expected to do. one day i’m going to do what makes me happy. one day soon, i’m going to live my life.