post number ten

i've decided to apply for a job. i loved working, just hated where i worked. having my own money, being accountable to something and having the independence. lawtons or a&m. the choice is easy but it's all about where the offers are. woes me.

i can not wait to go back to school and have all kinds of stupid drama to tell you about.

 

"I may not be different, but I’m definitely not the same."
-William Dybus

"Well you're not brave if you still keep the letters
and you're not sane if you don't want to get
better and you're not drunk if you can stay
in your lane. Well, you're not awake,
but you haven't been sleeping and you
hate god, but you don't believe in him. And you're
not scared but you've still got your eyes closed."

The worst isn't when you are in love with someone who doesn't love you back,
the worst is when you are in love with somebody who used to love you.

Great everyday magic is discovering those who are strong enough to catch you. Those who care enough to reach out their arms and cushion your fall. And I think that’s what’s so wonderful about life - you never know when you’ll stumble upon these kinds of marvelous people, or when they’ll stumble onto you. And as terrifying as it sounds, the greatest thing that could ever happen to us is to slip up in the wind and float down into that fall. Because you never know who will be waiting for you at the bottom.
-Penelope Bat

Here's a simplification of everything we're going though
You plus me, is bad news
But you're a lovely creation and I like to think tha I am too
But my friend said I look better without you.

if you've ever had one of those times when you've clutched a pen or something else in your hand for a long time, only to look down and be surprised that you are still holding it long after your need for it had passed, you'll understand sometimes we get so use to holding that we forget to let go.

Thomas Edison's last words were: "It's very beautiful over there."
I don't know where there is, but I believe it's somewhere,
and I hope it's beautiful.
Looking for Alaska   

If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with.
Michael Jackson

if a relationshop has to be a secret,
you shouldn't be in it.

She missed him. Not enough to want him back,
but just enough for it to hurt.

And the girl with burning eyes turned away from the setting sun.
She looked at him with more intensity then ever before.
"You have no idea what it's like being stuck in my mind."

I fly in water and swim in air.
My world is nonsense, but I don't care.

“I may still not know what I want to be when I grow up, but I do know that someday
I want to live in a house filled with my books and travel souvenirs.
And the walls that aren’t covered in bookshelves will be covered with photos of my family and friends. When I leave the house I will be going to a job I love,
and I’ll return to a person I love. So, that’s the dream I’m working on.”

And yet, I found I could survive. I was alert, I felt the pain - the aching loss that radiated out from my chest, sending wracking waves of hurt through my limbs and head - but it was manageable. I could live through t. It didn't feel like the pain had weakened over time,
rather that I'd grown strong enough to bear it.

It's said that the saddest thing a man will ever face is what might have been, but what about the man whose faced with what was, or what may never be, or what can no longer be? Choosing the right path is never easy. It's a decision we make with only our hearts to guide us, but sometimes we find our way to something better. Sometimes we fight through the regret and remorse of our mistakes, our malice and our jealousy, and the shame we feel for not being the people we were meant to be, and that's when we find our way to something better, or when something better finds its way to us. - One Tree Hill

Sometimes people are beautiful.
Not in looks. Not in what they say.
Just in what they are.

"I think it’s important to take the time to tell the people you love how much you love them while they can hear you." -Meredith Grey

"Just because you're naked doesn't mean you're sexy.
Just because you're cynical doesn't mean you're cool."

"At some point during almost every romantic comedy, the female lead suddenly trips and falls, stumbling helplessly over something ridiculous like a leaf, and then some Matthew McConaughey type either whips around the corner just in the nick of time to save her or is clumsily pulled down along with her. That event predictably leads to the magical moment of their first kiss. Please. I fall ALL the time. You know who comes and gets me? The bouncer."

"Do you remember what you told me once? That every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around." -Vanilla Sky

Dear Holly,
I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful...literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends.
P.S. I will always love you.

i love my piano playing abilities

It’s overused. It’s a cliché. It’s corny. It’s just a line.
It’s illogical. It’s troublesome. It’s always too abrupt.
It’s never on cue. It’s difficult to say. It will be held against you.
It’s too bold. It’s often quite pathetic.
It’s amazing how, after everything, I love you still works.