post number twenty three

has anyone  ever really thought about the god damn blessed shit we put ourselves through for the male population. they make everything so freaking complicated. it probably wouldn't be so moronic if we had the ability to open our mouths and do something about it.. but no. we'll just complain and cry about it. 

i hate living on this god damn hill. i'm just a bundleeeeee of goodies tonight aren't i? not. me and my favorite neighbour really need to smarten up and get an apartment together. haha it's just one big fucking lie. this whole house. and everyone in it. it is actually a very exhausting life to live when you're faking everything, watching what you say.. especially when you have to pretend to respect someone. like when you have a hatred and a disrespect that runs through your body like a livewire; it is near impossible to control yourself. it took me six years, but i mastered it. however, my controlled self is very rapidly and unraveling and i will very very soon be blowing up.

what upsets me is what has happened to my'n and my grandmother's relationship.  she was the most important woman in my entire life. there was no one in this world i'd rather spend my time with. but now.. it's like she has the roadrunner on this perfect little pedestal. she can do no freaking wrong. she wants to turn a blind eye and treat me like shit bc i spend all my time next door. i know she knows what is going on because there is no way you couldn't. i'd love for her to snap at me and say something and give me the oppurtunity to jsut positively give it to her. telling her everything plain as day. tell her what is going on, how long it's been going on, the things i have to do, the proof i have.. and how when she was acting like an idiot, the only people that got me through the run of a day were my neighbours and my aunt k. i want her to feel very inadequete for doing this to me. she thinks she is so damn superior. i never realized this about her. it hurts.

i feel better knowing that him and her are not together. i truely love my bestfriend for the digging that she did for me tonight. i'm sure she'll come knocking for repayment or she'll hold it over my head for a while. i don't care, i'll do it.

I don't mind living in a man's world as long as I can be a woman in it.
Marilyn Monroe

As usual, there is a great woman behind every idiot.
John Lennon

I wouldn't have lived my life the way I did if I was going to worry about what people were going to say.
Ingrid Bergman

 

I love to see a young girl go out and grab the world by the lapels. Life's a bitch. You've got to go out and kick ass.

Maya Angelou

Meredith Grey: Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.

Norrington: No additional shot nor powder, a compass that doesn't point north,
[looks at Jack's sword]
Norrington: And I half expected it to be made of wood. You are without doubt the worst pirate I've ever heard of.
Jack Sparrow: But you have heard of me.

Barbossa: How the blazes did you get off that island?
Jack Sparrow: When you marooned me on that god forsaken spit of land, you forgot one very important thing, mate: I'm Captain Jack Sparrow. 

 

we had a hurricane. it could potentially have been a lot worse.. but it was very bad.