post number thirty eight

so saturday was one hell of a party. r was there :)

me and my dearest old friend e had a chat in some strangers car.. i hope he didn't dent anything when he was punching everything..  hopefully he feels better soon <3

2 more weeks till c gets homeee, wahhoooo.

i got hit with a garbage bucket today.. it was not a pleasurable experience. i can't stand when people lose their temper. although i better get used to it. 

"you love me"

"ya caught me"

i hate when ppl txt you to hook up. battter.

lotssaa lovely regrets from the party but oh well.. when isn't there.

i don't have much to say tonight bc i am tired and crooked.

my daddy is home tho (: 

there's a difference between giving up and
letting go. giving up is sacrificing what was rightfully
yours, and letting go is forgetting what never was.

Don't envy anybody.
every person has something that no one else has.
develop that one thing in yourself,
and make it outstanding.

Well, when he doesn't talk to me for a few months again, yeah, I'm going to regret letting myself fall for him again. But right now, this is all I've wanted for a year. So, I am letting it happen.

Why is it that just when you get things together, you hear from the one person who could pull it all apart?

you keep saying, "yeah, i'm over him" but it
seems like you're trying to convince yourself
of something, rather than trying to tell me.

i think the hardest part about this situation is neither of us knows what's going on. neither of us knows what the other is thinking and we're both trying to make decisions based on the information we don't know.

i feel more comfortable talking to strangers than people i know. i believe this is because chances are i'll never see them again and i feel like i can say anything i want. they don't know my past or what i've done. they can only judge me on who they're seeing right at that second. i'm the person i am now, not then. people i know don't see the difference 

you know things aren't going well for you when you
can't even tell people the simplest fact about your life,
just because they'll presume you're asking them to feel
sorry for you.

 

i could tell you his favorite colors
green. he loves to argue, born on
the seventeenth. his sister beautiful.
he has his father's eyes and if you
ask me if I love him, i'd lie

and in ten years when we pass each other
on the street, i'll turn my head and pretend
i didn't see you but just remember that
i am so proud of who you've become..

after a year in therapy my psychiatrist
said to me "maybe life isn't for everyone"

Holding the truth in is almost
as hard as speaking it.

take a picture with me
just so i can see how cutewe could be together.

just because i laugh a lot
doesn't mean i dont cry.

You have such a pretty smile; it's a shame the things you hide behind it.

don't risk anything you aren't willing to lose

She said, "I never really thought I'd need this."
I said, "My goal is to be cigarettes to you."
It might sound dangerous but that just means it's worth it.
I said, "I wanna get the shakes out lady."
She said, "You don't know what you're getting into boy.
This is a story where the epilogue is endless."

"the people who know the least about
you, always have the most to say."

"You shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are,
just because somebody else has a problem with it."
-Sex & The City