post number forty one

sorry it's been so long readers. this week has been really stressful, and fantastic, and terrible..

although i must say everything has been going pretty friggin good with r, till yesterday. he's acting different.. but what can i do? wait it out

this house is positively the hardest to live in. that woman is insufferable, god help me.

doesn't even feel like christmas here anymore.. how am i supposed to feel festive?

my christmas party for work is tonight.. should be alright i suppose

i've been patient for so long..
how can i pretend to be so strong?

She is the type of girl that wishes on stars,
Even though she knows nothing will happen.
She still wants some hope, that her life will be better.
She wishes to be prettier, a stronger person.
But most of all, with tears running down her face,
She wishes for him.  

i've been told a million times before
that he isn't good enough for me.
but after all these times..
i'm starting to think maybe
i'm the one that's not good enough

what a brave little girl ;;
instead of adding to the drama like everyone else,
she decided to be different && not burden
the rest of the population with her problems ;;
she knows that in this world,
she's going to have to save herself

It's the simplest things
we tend to ignore,
when it's the simplest things,
that mean so much more.