post number thirty three

people do not understand the effort and time that goes into these updates.. 

i think i'm going to try and straighten up my room. but i reallllyyy don't want to, like definitely not in the mood. where the hell is my best friend? she usually does this.

last night was halloween. it wasn't terrible but it really wasn't great either. i had a grand time at the patrol but after was blah. i think i may be going to the new cafe with M later. i can see me spending a lot of time there sitting in a corner reading. i'm such a nerd.. it's great.

i am actually soo excited for wednesday. new glasses, possibly contacts, and a new outfit i found online that i love.

boys are officially dumb. i could actually write an entirely huge update cursing on top of whoever genetically modified us females to physically need the affection of particular boys. 

i need to get back in shape. so rain rain go away.

 

"he loves you so much and wants to take your close off so bad that he cant talk to you becuase hes afraid he'll devirginize you"

HAHAHAHAHAHAH, loves my bestfriend.

A victim of circumstance. A walking paradox. A beautiful mistake. Very much human. Sadness has and will always be my muse, though I would've preferred otherwise.

I sacrifice the things I want to and do things for you

But when it's time to do for me, you never come through. 

I'm not going to get upset and

I'm not going to care because every

time I did, it never got me anywhere.

We spend our whole lives telling ourselves

that everything happens for a reason

when in reality it's just that we give reasons

for everything that happens.

but if i wanted silence, i would whisper.

if i wanted loneliness, i would choose to go.

if i liked rejection i'd audition,

and if i didn't love you, you would know.

It's hard to watch people change right in front of you.

But the worst part is remembering who they used to be.

You never got the hint,

when all of those stupid quotes

and lyrics in my profiles were about you...

well guess what, they're not anymore.  

she gave up boy. shes gonna walk away.

she'll pass you in the hallway

like you are complete strangers,

just like you wanted it.

just because you paint a picture

doesn't mean it will fit the frame.

-take note of that ppl, i lalalove it.

it's not the load that breaks you down,

it's the way you carry it.

-knows alll about it.

So this is how it'll always be;

you'll be with her while saying you love me.

-ahem, read this M

I hope today is the day you ask yourself,

"I wonder what she's doing now that I'm gone?"

& then realize that you just maybe did love me.

What would you do if the rain was pouring down

there were unlimited movies to watch and

I was trapped insideyour house for the night?

"maybe this world is another planet's hell."

`. Aldous Huxley

"know yourself. don't accept your dog's

admiration as conclusive evidence

that you are wonderful."

`. Ann Landers

it takes less time to do things right

than to explain why you did it wrong.

`. Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Friends will pick up what you dropped;

but best friends will tell you that you

dropped it & keep walking

The only way to accept an insult is

to ignore it. If you can't ignore it, top it.

If you can't top it, laugh at it. If you can't

laugh at it, you probably deserved it.

If I could make one wish it would be to have no reason to make one.

"My body is a journal, and

my tattoos  are my story."

`. Johnny Depp

There is always someone suffering more than you,

but that doesn't mean your pain doesn't count.

It's so very obvious to everyone watching us

That we have got something real good going on.

-or we did anyway.

i'm fighting to get you out of my head

but i'm holding onto every word you said

i might hit the ground ,

but at least i'll have a story to tell.

I find the word stalker very offensive.I

like to call it planned coincidences  of bumping

in to each other or going the same way.

Life is the art of drawing  without an eraser.

The world owes you nothing; it was here first.

Every girl would be dead without her best

friend, I mean really, look at who's always  by

her side, it sure as hell isn't some guy.

Everything here is eatable. I'm eatable,

but that my children is called cannibalism

and it is frowned upon in most societies.

`. Willy Wonka